Monday, April 18, 2011
This is something new to me. I don't usually write or even spend that much time on a computer, but this needs to happen. No one ever told me how draining and hard motherhood truly would be. I am looking at this as a way to get out my feelings without taking it out on my significant other. Poor guy deals with enough from me. I have recently quit my job, not really sure why sometimes, and have become a stay at home mom. That right there is the biggest and sometimes most questinable decision I have made. Don't get me wrong, I love being able to care for my son who is almost one now but there are times where I miss adults. I miss interaction, the pressure, the demand of working and I'm not gonna lie even the gossip. I went from working towards goals of bonuses every month to working towards having my baby go one full day wothout crying (have yet to hit that goal). Not once while I was pregnant did anyone inform me how much patience and understanding I would need to handle this. I have worked a full time job since the age of 18 and that didnt even prepare me for this new task. I love my son and I think taking away a few minutes from him each day to write is going to not only make me happy but also save my insanity. Well my goal of not crying today has come to an end and most this for a day. Oh the joys of motherhood.